I assure you it’s all going to be okay is what the Lord tells me on a daily basis. The reassurance is definitely what I need to hear! Knowing that the Lord has my future all mapped out is great! The hard part is getting there! Dealing with all the bumps in the road along the way. That’s where reassurance comes into play. The Lord reminds me that He is in control, and He has my future mapped out, and the most important one is that He is my refuge in all things! He is where I go to be protected from the bad things that go on in my prison! The Lord sets me up on the rock on which I stand. He covers me with His wing. All I have to do is ask! He is my strength! The Lord has taught me a lot over the years and continues to teach daily. And I am so thankful for what He has done for me!
If you feel like a prisoner in your own home, talk to Jesus! If you feel like a prisoner inside your own body talk to Jesus! Open your Bible and read it. I personally would start in Proverbs. It’s the book of wisdom and we all could use wisdom! When I read Proverbs I start at the first of the month. Day 1: Ch 1, day 2: Ch 2 and so on. When there are only 30 days in the month then on day 30 I double up since there are 31 chapters in Proverbs. Then I would start it all over again. You can read more books along with it of course. If you don’t have a Bible go buy one. If you don’t have the money to buy one ask someone you trust to buy one for you I bet they would. Any church would happily get one for you! There are Bible apps for your phone as well.
It was a rough weekend for me. Things getting blown out of pa-portion, being called unkind names, just being treated like I’m just trash and don’t know things or how to do things. Not really ready to tell that story just yet. But I’ve felt like a prisoner in my own home and in my own body! Walking around on eggshells. Life shouldn’t make you feel that way. Your partner in life shouldn’t make you feel that way, nor should you make someone feel that way. I read something the other day about giving grace to those who don’t really do anything to deserve it. That’s not word for word what it said but that was the point. That really stuck with me. You know, God gives us mercy and grace everyday! Everyday!!! So why aren’t we doing the same thing to the people around us? Work, home, church, the stores, the slower drivers on the road. We don’t have to know them to give them grace,
Isn’t that what Jesus was trying to teach everyone? I mean that’s not all He was trying to teach, but that’s a big part. This weekend God really put me to the test by showing grace. And I tried. I really tried. But like anyone who is under attack sometimes you have to start swinging to protect yourself. And I did that, but I also remembered what God showed me and that was grace so I would bring it back and start over with trying to give grace to a man who clearly didn’t deserve it. This went on for about eight hours. God got me through it. I prayed a lot to Him through that eight hours of non sense. And I failed at giving grace, but I also did everything I could to redeem myself and regroup. But I know that this lesson will be forever in the forefront of my mind, reminding me of the second chances and the grace God’s us everyday. And I will make sure that I keep trying to show grace to those around me and hope they do the same for me.
