He got mad because he told me at 8am while I was working that he needed to go to the store and never reminded me after I got off work. Rose came in wanting to go shopping with her left over gift cards and I said yes. So he was mad because I could go with her but not him. Which was not the case. I had forgotten. I was working and still managed to get two loads of clothes washed plus two sets of bed sheets. All while I was working! Clayton could’ve just went or he could’ve just used his words and reminded me! I would’ve happily gotten ready! I have to work 6 days a week he works 3 days and like 4hrs of the 4th day. My job is stressful and I’m not doing very well at it. So when I get off I like to just watch crap on TV and play my games so I can unwind! I haven’t got to lay around for 3 and a half days watching TV with no stress! I told him he needed to learn how to be a big boy and use he’s words! I can’t read his mind and with all the stress I’m under I don’t have time to deal with he’s childless attitude!
When I had got off work Clayton was working on our taxes. He asked me to help and I did until he just took every thing back and took over again. I was hungry so I went to town and got us some lunch. I had bought two dessert jars. I told him whenever he wanted some just put some in a bowl so we didn’t spread germs (sickness has been going around our house). And yep you guessed it he got mad! Clayton said ” you didn’t buy us our own?” No sir not at $8 a piece. Two was plenty for us to share. I ended up taking some out of the jar and told him that he could eat the rest. And he refused to eat it! He refused! He was really mad about having to put it in a bowl! This is the same man who said he couldn’t eat a protein bar because it had to much sugar in it, but will eat a medium sized mason jar of chocolate pudding, brownie, cool whip. You know that’s loaded with sugar!
So now he’s mad over a dessert jar, and mad over not going to town with him. When we get in my car to leave, he’s now threatening to take my garage door remote out of my car. Which I don’t need I keep it there for backup. I have a car wash card under the remote to remind me to take advantage of it. Clayton takes that and throws it in my console and looks at me hatefully and says ” say it! I know you want to” I said ” well I’m not allowed to get in the truck and mess with stuff so stop messing with my stuff!” I told him there was no reason for his actions or attitude! No one had done anything to him! You would think after all this time together, and as many fights we’ve had over this and as many times as I’ve said it to him that he would get it! I forget things! I get busy doing things! You have to remind me!
He stays mad for the rest of the evening! I made him drive me around doing things and it was after seven that night when we got home. I didn’t buy supper so yep he was mad about that and having to find something to eat at home! He’s a picky eater so of course there’s nothing to eat. The next morning he reaches over and touches my back. I have the covers held tightly so he can’t pull them off me. I’m laying there just in shock (which I don’t why I am, it’s always the same with him) I’m thinking ” are you kidding me? you talk to me like I’m trash stuck to the bottom of your shoe, you have been so rude and hateful. No I’m sorry from you and now you think I want to roll over and have sex!!!!!” So now he’s mad because I’m not reacting to his touch so he just gets up. I’ve dealt with this for eleven years and yes I’m still shocked when he does this! He thinks whenever he acts a fool that having sex will fix it! And for most couples it does. But with those couples they actually say sorry and try to fix what was broken and come to an understanding! Not the case with Clayton! He’s never wrong, or sorry! He acts like a fool because I made him. I made him by not remembering to go to the store with him and not buying a dessert jar just for him!
Once a week I help groom his face. Well after I was done he was just laying with his head in my lap. I rubbed on his chest and asked him what was wrong. He wouldn’t say a word. I didn’t rush him up or push any issues. I told him that I didn’t like seeing him like this, and I really don’t. Every thing this man has put me through and as mad as I get at him, I do care about him and I don’t like seeing him hurting. I asked him again what was wrong and told him that when his heart aches it makes mine ache. Which it really does! A tear came down his face and I said “oh honey what’s wrong, it’s all going to be okay”. He just said ” I’ll get up” I told him that he didn’t have to and that there was no rush if he wanted to lay there. But he got up and never said another word.
Days later he’s okay and acts like nothing ever happened! Again you would think that I’d be used to this behavior and I am but it always still shocks me! I’m on that insanity train. I keep hoping for different results but, they never come!
