One of the biggest sayings is “Disney is the happiest place on earth”. And yes I can agree that it is, I mean it’s what you make it, as in everything you do. Most people say Disney is just a over priced theme park, and they wouldn’t be wrong. We save for at least a year and it takes all we have. We double down and we make it work. For me it’s a week of no cooking, cleaning or doing laundry. I don’t have to worry about work or anything else! It is my happy place, my home away from home. When we drive under the archway I’m a different person! Rose and I stay busy. We didn’t go all that way to sit in a hotel room and watch the same shows we watch at home. And she runs me to death. But it’s much needed time together. With Clayton having health issues he can’t do as much but honestly even before his health was bad he still didn’t do much with us. And there for a while I was limited on what I could do with Rose there because Clayton had all the money. That is no longer the case!
We got there and I got us settled in our room and Rose and I hit the water park. We had free tickets and we had never been to one there. It was so fun. We pay to have our pictures taken, so I take it very seriously. It’s too much money to not have family pictures taken and make those memories. Clayton and Rose aren’t super fans of it but too bad! We don’t take yearly pictures like some families do this is ours! Clayton and I always have little spats in the parks. Most people do! He thinks he knows more about the parks because he has been there more than me. But when I love something I focus in and pay attention. So when it comes to knowing where things are and how to get around I got this! The first day went pretty good. Not a lot of spats. I mean it’s day one. No one is tired. I mean, I was. I didn’t get to rest the day we arrived and I knew that I would not be catching up on rest anytime soon.
Day 2 started out a harder! I have to rent scooters for Clayton he can’t physically walk that much anymore. He can’t hardly handle walking around the store much less 10 plus miles a day in a park. Anyway. We always carry a cooler bag in the park with drinks to save money. I bought a new bag this year and I love it. It didn’t leak at all. Well Clayton can’t carry it do to the sores he has and that’s fine but I also carry in a backpack with all park essentials. It’s pretty heavy. Well Rose had been helping carry it but, as we were getting off the bus she was hot and tired I mean we all were. She was having a hard time so I said that I would carry it and it was okay. I’m used to doing most everything these days. Well I can hear Clayton saying something and Rose caught up with me and was crying. Clayton told her that she should be ashamed of herself for not carrying the backpack! That just flew all over me! How dare you say that to her!!! He’s the one who be ashamed of himself! He’s the one who didn’t take care of himself! He’s the one who didn’t go to the doctor! He’s the one who should be carrying bags!! I told Rose that it was okay and not to worry about him or what he said! Now I didn’t say these things to him! It would have been hell! I know when I can pop off and when not to! I was doing everything I could to make this a good trip!!
She settled down and we got into the park. I know that it’s a pain to get on and off the scooter. The cool bag has to ride on it too. We always take morning pictures in front of the castle and Clayton and Rose just kept on keeping on. I said we missed the pictures in front of the castle. And Rose wasn’t feeling it, Clayton was just scooting along. He finally said that he would turn around. I told him no we were to far at this point. I told them both that it’s just to much money wasted not to get our pics taken and that I know they weren’t fans but this was our yearly family pics and it means a lot to me. Of course the spatting kicks in. I told Clayton it was fine we just needed to make sure that we took them before we left the park. I was upset but nothing I wouldn’t over by the time we got on our first ride. Well, I don’t even remember what was going on we were waiting for the rides to open. I was over the picture thing, Rose said something about being hungry and I told her she had to wait about 30mins. The place we like to eat didn’t open until 9am and after we rode a few rides we’d head over and eat. Well then Clayton pops off about how she wasn’t going to starve just look at her! I told him that was uncalled for. You can’t say to anyone much less a 10yr old.
It was time to start riding rides and Clayton wouldn’t go with us. So okay we just went on our own. I was texting him about how he can’t say things to Rose about her weight. It wasn’t nice and how we were riding rides for the first time without him. Come to find out he was still mad over the picture thing. He and I were texting back and forth and talking about two different issues! Oh my word! I thought he didn’t go with us because I told him what he said to Rose was uncalled for! And he was mad over the pictures! UGGGGGG!!! So Rose and I get done and we have one more ride we have to ride before going to eat. By this time Clayton is now mad because Rose and I were gone to long and just left him there! DUDE!! I can’t catch a break! So when Rose and I make it back to Clayton, he starts in on the picture deal and how I went on and on about it and I pushed him to his breaking point. I told him that I said what I needed to say about it and I was done and that he is the only one still mad about it. I thought we were going back and forth over something else which should tell him I’m not going on and on, that he is. He threatened to go back to the hotel and check out and leave. Meaning he’d leave us there! Ya’ll Clayton would not stop! I told him again, how I felt about the pics and that I’m done with it. And that I haven’t pushed him! He is the only one that has control over hid feelings, and his mouth! He can just understand how I feel and do better or he can keep doing this! And that he always chooses to do this! My feelings don’t matter!
When Clayton is mad he doesn’t stop insulting me, calling me names, running me down until he has me in tears and I feel as bad as I’ve made him feel! It’s how he has always been! Well he did it! He now had me in tears! And I told him that I hope he was finally happy and over the pic thing cause the only one who kept it going was him! I got up tears running down my face I said we have a ride to get on so sit here or park your scooter I don’t care anymore! Rose is hugging me she now understands the importance of the pics and for the rest of the trip she happily took them. Nothing else was said about the pics or anything else. We went on about our day like normal people do. We still had a few moments but nothing like how the morning started off. We had one other moment the last day. I asked him if he wanted to get his scooter while Rose and I went to hold our place in what was going to be a long line and he said it was whatever I wanted to do. So I thought about and gave him money for the scooter and said I want to divide and conqueror. Well he came back with ya’ll go ahead I’m not going to ride it!!! Already starting and we aren’t even inside the park yet. So we did not split up I went and did what I’ve done all week and we went together and Rose and I waited in the long line while Clayton rode the scooter up to the front where you park them and waited on us!
You don’t tell someone especially your spouse “it’s whatever you want to do” and don’t mean it! It wasn’t whatever I wanted! It was and always is what he wants! Relationships are give and take. Not one is always taking it! I walked around praying to God to make this all stop! I just couldn’t take it anymore. We are supposed to be having a wonderful time. This may be Clayton’s last trip and he’s making Rose and I both feel bad and cry! It was just too much. By the last day I was just over the whole trip! And not looking forward to the drive home. But we made it home safe and sound. I’ve said it before that I know all marriages have bumps along the way. It’s how the couple handles those bumps. Do they say I’m sorry? Do they hug afterwards? Does it make them more respectful towards each other? Does it make them stronger? Do they pray? For me unfortunately all the answers to these are NO! I hope and pray for that for you these answers are YES!
